Monday, February 27, 2012

Rhythm Of Words

Rhythm Of Words

by Davina Skymmar on Monday, February 27, 2012 at 12:09am ·
" Poetry should... should strike the reader as a wording of his own highest thoughts, and appear almost a remembrance - John Keats 31 October 1795 – 23 February 1821 "

A few months ago, I got to know her. A brave young lady, who always smile. She has a dream. A dream of sharing her experience with teenagers like her. 

She wants to share of her journey with Big C.. through words..

Words that have been  carved out beautifully... turning everything into pieces of  poems

It does not take me long to know that her dream is to be a  poet/writer...

Seeing the determination that she has, resulted this project; "Rhythm Of Words" . She composed the words beautifully into poems, created moments of love, sincerity and hope...

She is Nia Rissa , 17 year old, currently batling with Big C

This project is a not by any NGO.. it is just by a few of us who believes in DREAM :) . InshaAllah, we are planning to have the launch on 17 Mar 2012.

May Allah SWT Bless you all

Take care

A few of us are trying to fulfill this bright young lady's dream of being a published poet. We are looking for sponsors to finance the project. What we had in mind are gift books that will appeal to both youngsters and adults. You can be a part of this by sponsoring or pledging to purchase a certain a number of books. We are trying to lower the cost of the book by printing more volume, if we manage to get enough pledge, the books will be sold at a special price of RM10.

Please help us make Nia Rissa's dream come true, pledge 1, 5 or 10, the more the better. Not only you'll be fulfilling her dream, you'll get beautiful books of poetry the would make wonderful gifts.

You can make a difference in life, why not start here.

Please share this. This project is by the Wishing Well Programme that fulfills dreams of little warriors battling the big C.

Inquires/pledges can be made to Davina Skymmar.

Thursday, February 23, 2012

a walk in the park

I woke up after a dream
of a walk in the tiny park
thin trees towering high
reaching the memory of sky

Lucky to be reminded
of the such innocence
naivety and shyness
but I lament of the could have beens

It was a part of life
that never could have happened
but if only for a moment
a slip in the universe
a dream within a dream

Lucky me
for I can dream

fajr, 23022013

Monday, February 20, 2012

never vanilla

lil' girl
i wish 
you'd pick 
your self up
you are
meant for
great things
and you
know it too

life is not
just vanilla
or chocolate
go ahead
create flavors
of your own
we know
it will be

i see
of me
in you
lil' girl
i know
how hard
it gets
but aren't
we the
strong ones
the one
that's meant 
to change 
the world

Friday, February 17, 2012

How I Did It

I have been battling with my weight ever since I can remember, almost always I was the biggest girl in class. I managed to shed about 20kgs when I was about 19 right after I had my appendix out. Managed to keep it off until I got married at 22. Since I did it the wrong way, there were moments I was bulimic. I couldn't/didn't keep it up when I got married, being the foodie that loves to cook I am.

My weight ballooned up to almost 110 within 15 years. I was battling with infertility, hated where I was in life and was quite disgusted with how I look at that time.

And one day before Ramadan, I think about a week before, something just struck in me. I NEED change. I need to get a hold of my life. And the easiest thing I could do is something that doesn't involve other. The change is all about me. I challenged myself.

I started controlling my food intake, with Ramadan it wasn't too hard. I cooked my own food, staying away from the normal Ramadan fares + the bazaar Ramadan. I went on a fat-free, no oil, no red meat diet. Meal consist of a dinner plate 1/2 filled with veges (raw/blanched), 2 tablespoon of carb + remaining being white fish / chicken breast that I oven bake/steam with loads of herbs & spices. Fruit is a must. And yes I take tonnes of yogurt, as part of the meal. I was taking 1 meal a day, sahur is just some tamar.

The weigh started melting, I lost about 7kgs in the 1st week - which I know perfectly well are just water loss, but hey! it was really showing. After about a week, I started walking daily for an hour in the evening just before iftar. It was truly murder in the beginning, but I kept to it. Chanting to my self 'The pain in my legs are not as bad as the pain in my heart caused by being stuck in this body I hate'. From the 2km on the 1st day, I was up to 3.5km and then 5km within the month.

Aidilfitri came and went, I stuck to my regime. Never touching anything but my own food. Surprised quite a few people with the changes as I did not talk about it at all, made sure no photos are on my FB that even hinted of the things I was doing. By then I've lost about 15kg, the changes was quite obvious, even my skin has gotten better. And I was doing it all drug free, none of those weight-loss program. The only extra supplement I take is Lecithin on top of my usual multivitamins. And yes I weight myself daily as to know what help with loss/gain. Oh, btw, after each meal I sometime weight almost 1.5kg more, but I know this are all water & etc. and it will just go away in less than 12 hours.

It's been about 6 months, I am still on the journey, though not as strict as before, I do take normal food in very controlled manner - just for the taste of it. I walk 3-4 times a week (up to 5 miles sometimes). I have lost more than 35kg. I still need to join the gym to tone up. I target 5-8kg more, I know this is not going to be easy at all, but I believe I can do it. And the bonus, I am actually smaller than some of those beauties during school/college time!

Lastly ladies, if I can do it, anyone can!

Thursday, February 16, 2012

a diversion in my path of life.

About six months ago I resolved to make some changes in my life. I wasn't too crazy with where I was with all the things around me. Many things need to change. At that point I decided that the first change should be something not involving others directly. Something that I could be in total control of. Something about me and myself. Hence began my journey of shedding all this excess, both physical and emotional.

As the physical transformation takes place, so does the my emotional state. I am discovering things about me that I never knew exist. This new strength, willpower and determination. And the creative part of me is also making a comeback. The eloquence juice is flowing well.

In the past six months, I've shed about 35% of my body weight, help edit & publish a book of poetry, re-evaluate a thing or two in my life, learn of a few of my hidden talents and best of all, I started living my life to the fullest.

My journey on this new path has begun. There's so much ahead, and I won't look back. I will brave this chance and no more regret. I will make the best of everything.

p/s : funny how I meant to write about something else but ended up writing this instead. So do you still want me to write about how I did it?