I did it my way

I have been battling with my weight ever since I can remember, almost always I was the biggest girl in class or anywhere for that matter. Very rare there's someone bigger than me. I did manage to shed about 20kgs when I was about 19 right after I had my appendix out. Managed to keep it off until I got married at 22. Since I did it the wrong way, there were moments I was dabbling with being bulimic. I couldn't/didn't keep it up when I got married, being the foodie that loves to cook I am.

My weight ballooned up at unbelievable rate within 15 years. I was battling with infertility, hated where I was in live and was quite disgusted with how I look each I look into the mirror.

And one day before Ramadan, I think about a week before, something just struck in me. I NEED change. I need to get a hold of my life. And the easiest thing I could do is something that doesn't involve other. The change must be about me. I challenged myself. To see if I still have anything left of the old fighting spirit.

I started controlling my food intake, with Ramadan it wasn't too hard. I cooked my own food, staying away from the normal Ramadan fares + the bazaar Ramadan. I went on a fat-free, no oil, no red meat diet. Meal consist of a dinner plate 1/2 filled with veges (raw/blanched), 2 tablespoon of carb + remaining being white fish / chicken breast that I oven bake/steam with loads of herbs & spices. Fruit is a must. And yes I take tonnes of yogurt, as part of the meal. I was taking 1 meal a day, sahur is just some tamar.

The weigh started melting, I lost about 7kgs in the 1st week - which I know perfectly well are just water loss, but hey! It was really showing. A week on, I started walking daily for an hour in the evening just before iftar. It was truly murder in the beginning, but I kept to it. Chanting to my self 'The pain in my legs are not as bad as the pain in my heart caused by being stuck in this body I hate'. From the 2km on the 1st day, I was up to 3.5km and then 5km within the month.

Aidilfitri came and went, I stuck to my regime. Never touching anything but my own food. Surprised quite a few people with the changes as I did not talk about it at all, made sure no photos are on my FB that even hinted of the things I was doing. By then I've lost about 15kg, the changes was quite obvious, even my skin has gotten better. And I was doing it all drug free, none of those weight-loss program. The only extra supplement I take is Lecithin on top of my usual multivitamins. And yes I weight myself daily as to know what help with loss/gain. Oh, btw, after each meal I sometimes weight almost 1.5kg more, but I know this are all water & etc. and it will just go away in less than 12 hours.

It's been about 6 months, I am still on the journey, though not as strict as before, I do take normal food in very controlled manner - just for the taste of it. I walk 3-4 times a week (up to 5 miles sometimes). I have lost more than 35kg. I still need to join the gym to tone up. I target 5-8kg more, I know this is not going to be easy at all, but I believe I can do it. And the bonus, I am actually smaller than some of those beauties during school/college time! 

My BMI is down by 14 points, from morbid obese to plain overweight ;) And 8kgs more, I will for the 1st time in my life join you normal people.

Lastly ladies, if I can do it, anyone can!