Before. After. Now

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Sunrise
Sunset
Midnight

Youth
Living
Life

Before
Then
Now

You
Me
Us
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The day before D day.

So I may not get my birthday wish. I can’t say it was anything more than wishful thinking, but I know we really worked hard for it. And there's nothing wrong in dreaming is there? 

The couple of days leading to my birthday had been truly an eye opening experience. I learnt so much and that includes human’s true colors. How some can crack under the simplest pressure and those weak looking one may turn out to be a real trooper. I came to realize how those you see as your close trusted friends, the one you'd take a bullet for could just sell you out in a heartbeat when they think their self interest is the of utmost importance. 

I met a few old friends, made more new ones, and found a kindred spirit or two. What I really noticed was that how down to earth some really high ranking people are and how snobbish those who think they are important can be. There was this one imaginary 'important person' who back-stabbed someone who has nothing to lose by treachery, thinking that she will earn brownie points for carrying tales, little did she realize that she is no where in the same league as the other person, and there’s nothing she will gain out of this but a reputation that’s not exactly nice.

I've also learnt that our body can take more abuse than we always thought, 3 hours of sleep everyday for a forthnight has been proven to be not fatal *wink* and that guzzling 8-12 glasses of 'teh tarik' can help you add on 5kg in the same period.

Here's to dreaming.

Kutiup cinta

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Pergi.
Pergilah bersama angin

Terbanglah beriring bayu

Cari hati sepi

Intai jiwa lara

Yang rindukan kasih 
Gelisah dalam kesunyian

Kembali.
Kembalilah kasih

Pulangkan cinta

Hadirlah bahagia

Temani dia

Dalam dakapan mimpi

Kala perjalanan 
Melayari kehidupan 
Nyata tanpa persinggahan

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Reflecting PRK P044 Permatang Pauh : Day 10

Thinking locally for P044 voters, I know they have nothing to lose and everything to gain by voting BN. After all, they have been having an absent MP who has done almost nothing for the past 17 years. These are human beings with lives, not just political pawns, to be abused just because a madman need to continue to pretend to be relevant.

An UMNO MP would bring vast changes. The residents will finally be able to taste some of the parliamentary allocation of RM6 million a year which makes up to about RM24 million in total plus the other perks of being the returning lost son. 17 years of undivided loyalty in return for things and favors Anwar Ibrahim did during his tenure as UMNO/BN MP is long enough. It's time for the people of Permatang Pauh to be part of BN seat again.

It is selfish of us the non voters of P044 to deprive the people of Permatang Pauh of something that should be theirs just because we want to prove a political point. Regardless who we support, Anwar Ibrahim, Najib Razak or Malaysia as a whole, people of Permatang Pauh need to give BN a chance, even if just to prove a their point.

Just my two-cents worth.

The Whys of Regrets

Two fridays ago, I said my goodbyes to her

I knew that was my final goodbye, 

The last time I hold her in my arms,

The last time I kiss her hands and cheeks, 

The last time I'll hear her speak to me, 

Sing along with me, retort to my silly jokes,

I knew that's the last time I could thank her,
for making me who I am today,

And that this was to be our last memory together.

And as I walked out of the room, tears running down my cheeks I knew that was the last time she will hear me tell her I love her.

Yet when I got the news this morning, something I always knew was coming, I keep screaming to myself, why didn't I go back, why didn't I tell her I love her once more. Why didn't I stay longer that day. 

The whys of regrets.

Monster Master and her monster.
Oct 2014

Thank you Ms. Loh for the endless things that you've done for me and many many more, you are the kindest and most beautiful person inside and outside that I know. I love you, I am saying it once again, even though I know you'll hear it no more.

Sleep tight now beautiful.

In loving memory of 

Ms. Loh Mei Lin

1956 - 2015